Thoughts about Albuquerque and the God who Loves Her

Sitting here, looking out the panoramic window of my 18th floor hotel room at the city of Albuquerque, I feel so much at peace. There's something about looking at the grandeur of nature, even surrounding a city, that is just so inspiring for me.  It makes me think of the greatness of God: His power, His protection (this flat basin community in the Southwest is surrounded on several sides by strong, tall mountains), even His grace and mercy, when I consider the many people who call this city home, some of them living on the streets, others barely keeping body and soul together, and others who have excelled enough to own a home of their own.  No matter their economic status, however, each of these lives has challenges they face every day.  God wants to help them face those challenges.  I wonder how many of them know that, or realize that He really WOULD intervene, if they asked Him.  I know that some have done so.  There's at least one Bible-believing church in this town, run by people who truly love and rely on the Lord, and I've been praying for them, and for all believers in this town to blaze with Christ's glory and for revival to come.  I agreed with a dear friend who also loves Jesus this morning for that very thing.  I believe He heard me. In fact, I know He did.  I can't wait to see how my God fills this basin with His glory!  Come, Lord Jesus

I am in such pain today.  It seems no matter what I do in a given situation, I do not measure up. I cannot go into detail, but I can say that I have tried everything I can think of to resolve the situation and have decided there is just no way to reach a resolution.  For those who would advise me to pray, to trust God, I am doing both, and I know that He has my back.  That does not keep me from feeling excruciating emotional pain sometimes because of what I am enduring.  Some days, I wish I could just walk away from the whole thing but, for a variety of reasons,  that would not be advisable. It's not because I'm afraid. It's not because I don't have personal strength.  It just is wiser to endure the pain for a while yet.  Still, the pain sometimes feels unbearable.  I am so sick of this situation and how it makes me feel. I am exhausted from the trial.